Light of Hope
Friday, October 23, 2009
Woo I'm back. Been TRYING to study very hard but to no avail. I find it hard to keep up to Mdm Tay's advice of 12 hours per day. OMG, it sounds accomplish-able but I always find myself stuck in this cycle of procrastination, like now!
I think I might need to reschedule my study plan, if not I'll have tonnes and tonnes of backlog. Just can't seem to make them disappear. Oh well.
Anyway, I wonder what I can do after the A level besides gaming the whole day. It seems that my sense of purpose may fade after that. Hm... Well, maybe the 'good' news is that I will soon be posted to the army, talk about 'good' timing - two days after the graduation dinner. -.-
Well, who to blame? None other than me myself. :p
I have accepted this fate and somehow try to be as optimistic as I can in predicting how my future will be. Come to think of it, it's still quite uncertain. Especially with A level looming ahead and my Achilles' heel, GP.
Got to try (DO) my best in whatever I do and put in all the effort. I seem somehow motivated to study now. Maybe blogging isn't that bad after all since I'm reflecting while writing a post. Anyway, I hardly plan what to write in most of posts. They're all usually preliminary thoughts.
Of course, this shouldn't be applied in the essays that I'll be constantly fighting through in the week after next. Anyone who fails to plan plans to fail.
Okay that's it. I may come back more often if I subconsciously remember the existence of this blog. :p
Lead me the way; {17:52}
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Monday, October 05, 2009
Undesirable historical events shall not happen again.
Lead me the way; {19:19}
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Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Reality...
During the June break, we had around 3 weeks to cover around five-sixth of our syllabus.
Now in September break, we have only 1 week to cover the whole syllabus!
"Holiday" seems like a forgotten word since everyday is almost like study day. -.-
Lead me the way; {23:26}
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Monday, August 17, 2009
Just got some time to do a short post.
- I have been extremely busy with school work, it's like 100% academic work now, timed-practice almost everyday! To the extent that I'm numb by it.
- Really worried for prelims (who's not?) especially my GP, don't know whether can make it or not?
- Starting to love humanities. Seems ironic, I know. AJ is such a science school and yet I turn out to like humanities more and more and seem to lose interest in science. Maybe AJ is not the factor. =D
- Yep, that'll be all. Got to go study now. Back to reality again. Man...
Lead me the way; {19:46}
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Okay... I have been neglecting this blog again...
Wow. I have been relatively busy studying, playing and meeting up with friends, though I don't really enjoy the study sessions. Most of the time, they're horrifying. I just calm myself down despite knowing that I have studied simply because I'm not entirely sure if that would net me good results.
Sometimes I stop and thought (like right now), what am I trying to achieve? Good results so that I can get into the university which would then earn me better job opportunity? No need to have parents who constantly nag at their children to buck up and perform? Or it's just that I want recognition from people?
I seriously have no absolute answer to this.
Then I also ponder if doing all these will really make me happy. But reality is cruel. I know I can't possibly lead a life like there's no tomorrow. I need to plan for my future. Pardon me, is it my future or the future that some other people wants to see?
To my dismay, I began to realise that my thoughts are getting more disorganised and I'm finding it hard to communicate properly. I'm confused now, for no apparent reasons. :S
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Monday, June 08, 2009
Wow. I thought the Pre-U Sem was just going to be another boring lecture talks and talks and talks. But it turned out to be the best week I ever had. It was extremely fun and the people were "crazy" and bunch of fun people. Lucky me!
I got to cheer like some crazy person, got to attend seminar -.-, got to experience sewing for the first time -.-lll, witnessed the "blood-bath" in the parallel presentations, went to sentosa, made a lot of new and cool bunch of friends, experienced what hostel life is like, wear blazars for 4 consecutive days o.o, not to forget - sleeping during the seminar, haha.
As you can see, there were a lot of things going on. Just love everything and somehow missed the panel discussion which I could place my head on the comfy cushioned wall at the back of LT25 in the NUS. :D
I had very outspoken and kind neighbours at the hostel and we're all seminar group mates too. :D I definitely enjoyed the Pre-U Sem! I just wish it could continue for another week or maybe better, another month.
Lead me the way; {20:39}
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Sunday, May 31, 2009
And wala... All that whatever you call it has finally ended! Hooray!
And now I can finally focus on my school work. Well, so time for a super-packed holiday filled with study plan. Well, the amount to study may seem like mountain but I'm sure it's not impossible to conquer.
After the mass session with the school counsellor, I just thought that instead of wasting time to have negative thoughts, I might as well as believe in myself and channel the positive energy from my confidence into my work. Not only will be less painful, I may even be more efficient. So yeah, I suddenly become more positive.
As I typed this, I suddenly remembered the picture of the eagle hung up on the left side of the wall of Montfort's hall. It was captioned "When you believe it, you will see it". I firmly believed in the power of believing then - not that I'm in whatever religion, of course - and thought that with the will, anything I want to do can be accomplished.
But well, I think I lost my way somehow this year. Haha. I gotta thank this post for allowing me to discover another insight of my life. Of course, just solely believing isn't going to take me anywhere. It just lays the direction and the path for me to walk on. I need to pace myself well and walk towards where I want to go.
Tomorrow, I'll be away for the Pre-University Seminar. Oops. I gotta take back my words from the first sentence. Haha. It will be a 5 days 4 nights stay. And I hope I can meet a lot of new and cool people and maybe become friends. I shall look forward to enjoy the stay in the gorgeous condo-like hostel. =D
Then next week, time to mug like hell heaven and also sleep earlier if possible! :D
Lead me the way; {20:46}
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Sunday, May 17, 2009
Wow. Just look at the date and be surprised. One month is going to pass, and this equates to another month nearer to the long-awaited A-level! But aside from that, there is still CCA commitment, some alpha stuff, other commitments, and also some slacking. Nonetheless, with the end of term 2 drawing near and us approaching the end of the syllabus, I began to reflect. Oh no... I still have a lot of homework! ARGH! (being random here =p). But the previous sentence basically shows how the situations are still not well-controlled and most likely due to the results of the many commitments I have. Well, maybe besides that, I think my brain really loves to rest a lot. So that leaves for quite a short duration for my study. =( And most "awesomely", I'm going to Pre-U Sem after two weeks and going to miss one week of holiday lectures!!! Talk about wanting to study more... -.- Gawd... Enough ranting! I've got a new assignment - to sleep. Haha.
Lead me the way; {21:37}
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Friday, April 24, 2009
As much as I love to update, as much as the lack of time I face. April is sure a busy month...
SYF is coming!
Sorry folks, I am kinda brain-dead by now... -.-
Lead me the way; {20:57}
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Friday, April 03, 2009
Right... That's that. Now I just thought of a new topic to discuss about.
That'll be gifts.
Well first of all, I assume most of us enjoy accepting gifts from others and all in all, the gifts are meant for good intention.
Well of course, good intention can never be an excuse for the giver to choose an inappropriate gift for the receiver.
I just thought of this topic because today, I went to buy a gift for Jing Wen's birthday, which is coming up (the party and the actual day)
Well, I kinda feel that I don't really receive a lot of gifts from the day I was born till now. From what I can remember from then, my birthday gifts from relatives have more than often been the red packet.
Red packet is a scary thing! I think I have illustrated that quite a few times. On both Chinese New Year occasions during this year and last year.
Of course, politics is one thing. However, I feel that giving red packets seem meaningless and insincere. Usually the giver's intention is that they'll give me the money so that I get to buy things that I want. But I think that is absurd because one thing is, the money's fate is usually to be locked up in the miserable cell of our dear Singapore's POSB Bank. Two, I think that the giver is really not putting their hearts into the gifts they're giving.
Good gifts are hard to choose. They have to be really good to the receiver's eyes. BUT of course, the price tag of the gift shouldn't really matter because above all, expensive gift is considered, to me, as common gift.
Now, first thing about choosing appropriate gift is that you need to understand the character of the receiver. If you know the person well, you know what he/she wants. If the person is a happy-go-lucky person, he/she may be unlikely to hold grudge against you when you gave him/her something that is out of ordinary. Well, that would be a plus because you have less tendency to buy things that people usually buy: notebooks, stationery items, shoes, bags, etc.
Second is practicality. In this case, I mean that you may consider the long-term sustainence of the gift - whether it is perishable or non-perishable. Practicality in my case, does not really come in with whether the receiver will use it or not. I'm rather more mindful about whether the receiver will appreciate the gift.
Lastly will be the significance of the gift. Of course, you must eliminate a few bad gifts like clock because it represents you're sending someone off his/her last journey (road to death) or even gifts that may carry certain wrong message such as giving a rose despite the fact that you're not trying woo the receiver. If the receiver does receive gifts of this kind, he/she may not feel comfortable and may misunderstand the giver's intention.
So that's that about giving gifts to people. Gift-buying process may seem painful but it's the joy you see from the receiver which is the best gift to the person giving the gift (so essentially, you receive back a gift too!)
Lead me the way; {22:41}
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